Life Update | I’m a graduate student!

Hello, sweet peas! Long time, no see!

I’m sorry I’ve been MIA recently, but, to be fair, it’s been for a good cause. As you can tell by the title, I got accepted into graduate school and will be begin studying for my Master’s degree in English this January, as well as working as a part-time research assistant for the English department!

*cue internalized screaming*

I’m so grateful for this opportunity, and I realize I’m speaking from a place of privilege and luck to have the option to attend school. I wish more than anything in this world for education to be more accessible and affordable. To be honest, if it wasn’t for my research assistantship scholarship waiving my tuition, graduate school probably wouldn’t have been an option — my undergrad studies put me in enough debt as it is. It’s cruel, unjust, and simply absurd to force people to pay thousands of dollars for wanting to further their studies after high school, but hey, that’s American capitalism and oppression for ya!

Anyways, after multiple last-minute e-mails and weeks of anxious waiting, I finally received my acceptance letter. Honestly, I didn’t plan on going to graduate school after completing undergrad, mainly from burnout, but a very reflective and confusing gap year changed my mind.

In the last year, I realized I love literature, the power it has to transform and guide a reader’s life, and gushing to people about it! If it wasn’t for books, I don’t even know what type of person I would be now. Plus, I surprisingly miss school. So, with all of this in mind, I decided to pursue graduate school in hopes of becoming a professor one day.

I’ve had so many wonderful and wise teachers throughout my lifetime, as well as some god-awful ones. However, it’s both the awesome and terrible teachers that make me want to become a professor. Of course, I want to make my previous professors proud and provide for students the same way they did for me, but, more than anything, I want to do better justice to English literature than the awful “teachers” I once had.

I remember all of the literature survey studies I took throughout undergrad that inevitably started with something along the lines of “I know you all don’t want to be learning about stories and are only here for the credit and probably won’t show up…” Can you say heartbreaking? It would infuriate me because the entire purpose of a professor is to get students engaged in their topics and discussions; not admitting students annoyance and pre-failure. I kid you not, almost every literature survey I attended was like that, and I really want to defeat this odd taboo that reading is boring and meaningless. Literature opened me up to a world and mindset that I never thought was possible, and I hope to help someone along that same journey.

But yeah! I’m super stoked to get back into the academic world and feel at home again. I have a lot of blog post ideas planned, as well, so be on the lookout for those!

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season! Stay safe, my love bugs!

Life Update | where I’ve been, what I’ve done, and what’s to come

Hello my darlings! Long time, no see. I hope you’re all doing wonderfully!

I’ve taken a step back from my blog this past month, primarily from a stressful life and unsuccessful reading experience.

As I’ve talked about in the past, I’ve been in a weird reading slump; half finishing books and never meeting my TBR goals. Even though I have finished quite a few memorable and thought-provoking reads, I haven’t been able to really enjoy and appreciate a well-written book. Maybe it’s me, or maybe I have yet to find something that kindles a flame inside my dead heart.

Either way, it’s not been a very good reading time.

Since I wasn’t reading any new books, I didn’t have any drive to post on my book-focused blog. It didn’t feel right. Eventually, I succumbed to smoke sessions and reruns of The Office and Trailer Park Boys to fill my spare time while simultaneously avoiding my graduate application. Ya girl wasn’t getting shit done.

But I’m happy to say that I’m feeling inspired and motivated enough to announce my return!

It could be the recent full moon, or the fact that it’s my birth month (happy libra season!!), but I’m ready to reorganize both my life and my blog.

After some minor reflections, I’ve decided to revamp my blog to not only book-related content, but also an outlet to experiment with my own writings, as well as a few random shit posts.

TBR posts and typical book hauls just aren’t doing it for me anymore, which I hope is a good thing, and I want my writing to be both organic and authentic.

Not that I think my previous posts are bad or disingenuous, but they felt very structured and often forced. I wasn’t having fun with it, but I think I feel more comfortable now to branch out into new, fresh and fun content and writing, whatever that may consist of.

Don’t worry, I’ll still be doing book reviews, hauls, and recommendations, but I’m going to take a break from TBRs and, maybe (depending on how many books I finish), monthly wrap-ups. However, I’m going to be posting more poems, short stories, articles, or whatever I’m feeling at that particular time.

I’m definitely looking forward to letting myself relax and enjoy writing rather than making it a chore, as well as getting my shit together for grad school, and I’m ecstatic to dive into some new creative elements!

Honestly, with Trump testing positive for COVID-19, things are already starting to look up. Nevertheless, VOTE. HIM. OUT. PLEASE. FOR THE LOVE OF HUMANITY.

I hope you all have a wonderful and spooky libra season! Sending much love and successful reading endeavors to all of you, and thanks for sticking around for this sporadic mess of a life update.